• prayer
    You Know How I Am … You Know How I Am …

    You Know How I Am …

You Know How I Am …

An addicts prayer:  ”God, help me to serve others, because, you know how I am.” Indeed, He does know how we are.  As addicts we share a common heritage of being concerned with ourselves first.  Our “I want what I want, when I want it,” mantra is never far from running our show.  The antidote we must take as often as we can is to serve others. Surprisingly, we often don’t realize how selfish and self centered we are.  Our addiction comes with a nice auxiliary package of blindness that helps us ignore that.  We very often think that we [...]

  • drug deal
    We aren’t winning the War on Drugs! We aren’t winning the War on Drugs!

    We aren’t winning the War on Drugs!

We aren’t winning the War on Drugs!

In 1971, President Richard Nixon first declared a national “war on drugs,” asking for $84 million as he told Congress that drug abuse had “assumed the dimensions of a national emergency.” President Ronald Reagan re-affirmed a national commitment in 1982, declaring “illicit drugs to be a threat to U.S. national security.” According to Senate Judiciary Committee chairman Patrick Leahy, the war hasn’t gone all that well. “I think we have spent tens of billions, hundreds of billions of dollars on the so-called War on Drugs. Well, we’ve lost.” For perspective, some 22.5 million Americans ages 12 or older (8.75 percent [...]

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    Shopping Addiction Shopping Addiction

    Shopping Addiction

Shopping Addiction

Anything that can alter our mood, (and, interestingly, not always to feel better) can become the object of our addiction.  Compulsive behavior comes in many forms, Roger’s recent KSL article (http://www.ksl.com) explores shopping addictions. It sounded like a self-introduction you would hear at any other 12 step meeting, “My name is Buzz, and I am” … and here is where it changes, “a shopaholic.” Eyes may roll and heads shake at that declaration. “Does everything have to be an addiction these days?” skeptics ask. Buzz elaborates and repeats his declaration, “In the past few years, I’ve bought 81 leather jackets. [...]

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    Letting go.  An image essay. Letting go.  An image essay.

    Letting go. An image essay.

Letting go. An image essay.

Some thoughts on a subject all must master, letting go.  We don’t get to keep our old life, the addict within would like that, but it is impossible.  ”The White Book” says we send it away by confessing, by the telling of it.  However we do it, we must all let go. next next next next next next next next next next next next next next

  • cemetary
    Sometimes it takes all we have, even our lives. Sometimes it takes all we have, even our lives.

    Sometimes it takes all we have, even our lives.

Sometimes it takes all we have, even our lives.

This letter to the editor from the Austin Chonicle tells an all too familiar story. Our addictions require an accounting, a settling up. They come at a cost, sometimes we don’t have enough to lose and our life is also required. It is one of the great tragedies of our times, and also, one of the realities. On Sunday, my friend of 24 years, Debbie, died in St. David’s South Austin Medical Center from a cocaine-related heart attack. She was 53 years old. Thirty-eight years of heroin, cocaine, and pills had taken their toll. She always thought it was OK [...]

  • pen
    Something Happens When Pen Meets Paper … Healing! Something Happens When Pen Meets Paper … Healing!

    Something Happens When Pen Meets Paper … Healing!

Something Happens When Pen Meets Paper … Healing!

Remember those grade school assignments to keep a journal for a week or two? Well, your teacher may have really been on to something. Advocates from many disciplines encourage people to keep a journal. “When people are given the opportunity to write about emotional upheavals, they often experience improved health,” Dr. James Pennebaker, psychology department chair of the University of Texas, says. “They go to the doctor less. They have changes in immune function. If they are first-year college students, their grades tend to go up. People will tell us months afterward that it’s been a very beneficial experience.” Benefits [...]

  • Meditation is not just for yoga instructors… Meditation is not just for yoga instructors…

    Meditation is not just for yoga instructors…

Meditation is not just for yoga instructors…

Roger’s article published on ksl.com recently: Meditation is not just for yoga instructors anymore. A Ph.D. In Seattle includes meditation as a treatment protocol for a personality disorder, a midwife in Maine teaches its practice in preparing women for childbirth, a Minneapolis business guru advocates it as a way to increase productivity, clinicians across the nation suggest it as a pain management regimen. The practice of meditation and the principles of what is being called “mindfulness” are being brought into life’s mainstream as the many benefits are being recognized and embraced. But for many, mediation is still a bit mystical [...]

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    Making Sense of Cutting and Self-injury Making Sense of Cutting and Self-injury

    Making Sense of Cutting and Self-injury

Making Sense of Cutting and Self-injury

Roger’s article appeared on ksl.com this week.  It identifies a problem that is common in far more families than we think.  Especially families touched by addiction or compulsive behaviors. A definition presented by a Cornell University study is a bit chilling: “It is the deliberate, self-inflicted destruction of body tissue … commonly associated with scratching, cutting or carving the skin, banging or punching objects or oneself, and biting oneself. Most common locations for these injuries are arms, wrists, hands and thighs.” It is called “cutting” and is being practiced by a surprising number of youth and young adults across the [...]

  • Yesterdays Shower… Yesterdays Shower…

    Yesterdays Shower…

Yesterdays Shower…

Yesterdays recovery is like yesterdays shower … Not gonna solve your problem today. “It works if you work it …” And there in lies the problem, there is no warrantee if you don’t work it. No promise, no protection. Each day needs it own work of recovery to keep us safe. When we fail to go to a meeting, read recovery material, say our prayers, make our telephone calls or do our daily commandments of recovery, we invite our addictive behaviors to rule, once again, our roost. Ann Lamont forewarns us by saying, “You can get the monkey off your [...]

  • Checking the back door … Checking the back door …

    Checking the back door …

Checking the back door …

Our addict is a creeper.  As we establish sobriety he is exiled and sent away, his purpose then becomes to seek a way to creep back into our life.  It is a battle of survival, he will not play fair, he will stop at nothing. He loves back doors, where he can enter into our minds conversation without being noticed.  He is so very subtle.  He doesn’t came screaming, “Let’s go act out.”  Our addict is smarter that that.  He knows that he will be dismissed if he attacks by frontal assault, we have learned to protect ourselves from that. The back [...]